Yep. I said it. I'm beyond overwhelmed and stressed and homesick. I've been gone for a week and a half, but I'm feeling 10 million years away from myself right now.
In the past 10 days, I've done so much. I've been able to visit Caracas, El Hatillo, Rio Chico, and many parts of Higuerote. I've taken nearly 300 pictures already, I've eaten more arepas and empanadas than I want to recall, my skin is darker (I think), I'm tired, yet I go to bed at 9:30pm every single night, and wake up at 8am every morning feeling great. The sun is literally draining every morsel of energy from me, mentally and physically.
I'm not finished transitioning, and I feel like I'm hitting a wall because my mind is going 2,000 miles a minute, and my body is just...not keeping up. It'll take time, I know that. I guess I expected to hit the ground running...which I have, mentally. But I'm getting a physical kick-back that's taking a toll on me.
Also, I'm getting a bunch of e-mails asking for more constant updates. I'm trying, really. Venezuela is ALOT to take in. I already feel like I've been here for months and I've hardly broken the 2 week mark. Recalling everything that I've felt and am feeling even as I write this has been harder than I thought.
Also, I miss my parents so much and it's the worst.
Communication is a bit stunted so all of my conversations are literally going through a bottle neck. I try to call/text/e-mail/blog when I can, but by that time I've had 4 days of 10 billion things. 10 billion great things, yes. But 10 billion things affecting all of my senses at once and making me think of everything at once and I'd love to take everyone that I love and put them in front of me so that we could all experience everything together. Unfortunately I can't.
Anyway, I'm safe and things are moving along fine. I feel like I've gotten older in a short period of time, but I'm content.
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